I am a horrible person to be in a relationship with. I get clingy, I get moody, I complain a lot and ... I am just an extremist. And every time I talk to Brian, I feel the urge to put him out of his misery and set him free. He got me jewelry for Christmas; why he did that, I have no fucking clue. However, I saw it and my heart broke. I want to be balls deep in love and forget about the whole inevitable "break-up" looming over my head. I want to listen to him and laugh at his jokes and tell him my hopes and dreams. I want to listen for the shaking of his voice, hold him when he is overwhelmed and be more than sexual release. But who am I kidding, once I do that, I might as well kiss him goodbye and help him pick a new girlfriend.
He's going to be drunk with his friends tonight and I don't even mind. I'm silly.
And even though the end of this break brings my boyfriend back to me and brings back most of my friends and a means to keep busy; I wish it didn't have to end. I'm going to miss spending so much time with Lisa.
A part of me wants to be that wholesome girl while another part of me wants to be a Maneater; tearing up the scene, spinning heads and crushing hearts. Oh well, I will just have to face this new year as is.
So much for my Ugly Duckling/ Swan transformation.
Akonfused Gal
He's going to be drunk with his friends tonight and I don't even mind. I'm silly.
And even though the end of this break brings my boyfriend back to me and brings back most of my friends and a means to keep busy; I wish it didn't have to end. I'm going to miss spending so much time with Lisa.
A part of me wants to be that wholesome girl while another part of me wants to be a Maneater; tearing up the scene, spinning heads and crushing hearts. Oh well, I will just have to face this new year as is.
So much for my Ugly Duckling/ Swan transformation.
Akonfused Gal
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